I’m one of those people! Give me a Pumpkin Spice Frappuccino or a Pumpkin Spice Chai Tea Latte and I’m a happy camper! Closer to winter time and my taste change or rather get added to. Closer to the colder temperature, I’m a fan of pumpkin coffee or peppermint cappuccino.
But Pumpkin is always in the forefront of my wants during the Fall and Winter.
Do you ever just feel like you’re lost? You know you want to be doing something but you don’t know how to start.
I am currently participating in the #hotandsticky writing challenge as well as Camp NanoWriMo. My goal for the month is 18k. I am about on par for where I need to be for Camp NanoWriMo but I am extremely behind on the #hotandsticky challenge of 55k by the end of August.
One thing that I am extremely happy about is the fact that I have written EVERY SINGLE DAY since the first of June! It feels great to know that I have made such an amazing habit.
But the last few days, I feel like I am just in a slump. Like everything and anything that I write is trash and not worthy of putting down on paper, or in my Word document rather. 🙂
It know it’s not. I know that I’m just in a dark phase and I will move past it. This too shall pass.
I just need to focus on me and my happiness. I’m used to listening to everyone else and helping them with their needs and well-being but I need to focus on me.
Julia Cameron, in The Artist’s Way, suggest Artist’s Dates. Take yourself, by yourself, out on date. Do something creative. Whether it’s to a coffee shop to journal and people watch, or maybe to a stationary store to treat yourself to a new pen or notebook. Do something for you!
I have friends who support my writing endeavor. They give me encouragement. They give me prompts and ideas at times too.
I’m thankful for them and their encouragements but I don’t need to think so much about them and their thoughts and opinions that I let it affect my writing. My writing is for me. If I ever publish professionally, it will be for others to enjoy but it will still be for me ultimately.
There are people that don’t understand why I write what I write. They don’t understand my wanting to write Male/Male (M/M) Romantic fiction. I could go on and
on for hours about how I felt like I was such an outcast in high school because I knew that I was different and I felt like no one ever was going to be the same as I was.
My friends were alright with my being gay but my parents, they were not.
They didn’t understand. They hated it. My family was never the same after my coming out. My coming out hadn’t even been intentional. A forgotten note left in a jeans pocket before laundry day.
But any-who, when I was in high school, I never dated. I never went to the prom. I never went down to the lake and broke curfew because I was too busy making out.
I never had the opportunity because there was never anyone else like me that I could connect with in high school.
That is why I turned to writing. If I couldn’t experience the love and romance that I wanted to, my characters sure as hell were going to.
That’s why, when I write, most of my characters end up living blissfully happily ever after.
I’m happy for the most part myself. I have a good job. I don’t make a lot of money. But its a fairly easy job. I have a bit of down time where I can ponder on my story.
I have friends and family that love me but I am still alone in a romantic sense. Is it because I’m scared? Yes. I’ll admit that. I’m scared to put myself out there because I’ve been hurt in the past.
The following quote is from the 2007 movie Shelter. The scene is Tory and Zach at the beach. Zach is unsure of moving forward with his relationship with Shawn.
“We don’t belong to people forever.” Tory to Zach – Shelter “Then why bother?” Zach to Tory – Shelter
Why bother? You have to go after what you want because if you don’t, you’ll never know what you were missing.
🙂 Seems kind of ironic considering I’m alone and haven’t went after what I wanted. But in regards to my writing, I’m trudging ahead!
Why is it that GOOD habits are so easily broken and BAD habits are not?
Every year countless people create their list of New Year’s Resolutions. They’re either making a commitment to stop a bad habit and/or to create a good habit.
Now, they might start off strong with that habit to Eat Better Food! A lot of time, however, it’s easier to slip back into that bad habit of eating the bad, fast, and convenient foods that we all love so much.
I myself for instance, had created a very good habit of writing each and every day during the month of November back in 2015. I wrote every single day. It might not have been more than 50 words but I wrote.
Then December came and the habit broke! WHY?
On the other hand, I had a bad habit of biting my nails. Now, this habit is most definitely not easy to break. I have attempted to break this numerous different times over the years to no avail. WHY?
What are you thoughts on this subject? Why do you think it’s so easy to break a good habit and so difficult to break a bad habit?
For more information on breaking habits, check out some of these links.
So, it has been months since I last posted anything on here. I hate that. But it hasn’t been just here. I haven’t written anything other than some personal journal entries.
But this month of March, I am participating in a new challenge called 30 in 30 over on Facebook. Check it out HERE. Challenge is to write 30,000 words in March.
Now, I’m not following the rules to the T because I want to just start writing every day. This was my goal for last November as well and I accomplished it then. But sadly, when November ended, so did my habit of writing each and every day.
This is something that I am really not proud of but I am in the process of rectifying the slip in my writing self.
I am venturing out of my comfort zone. I’m joining groups on Facebook and other places online. I haven’t really sought out anything physically local but online for me is just as good because it gives you the freedom to come and go as needed.
I’m super psyched for Camp Nano in April. I’ve only done Camp one other time but I love it just as much as I do November Nano.
This week is going to be working on getting a schedule set up to post to my blog because I want to have a regular post going out each week. Thursdays might be my days each week but I will fine tune and post about it. 🙂
Everyone have a great day and as always, HAPPY WRITING!
So, I haven’t posted a NanoWriMo blog in a few days and I am very disappointed in myself about that. I had a few goals this month and one was to post everyday. But real life got in the way with long work shifts and being almost too tired to write at all. Now, I will say, I did get my Nano writing done and I had to choose between that and blog posting and Nano writing was going to win hands down.
But as for my planning outline, I have pantsed in the past and this year I had a pretty good outline going for one of my short stories (i’m doing a short story collection this year) and I had thought that that one short story itself would be about 8 to 10 thousand words but right off the bat, the characters decided to take control, which isn’t bad in and of itself but my inner voice kept saying you’re not following your outline. Also, my characters kinda ended the story at about 4 thousand words instead of 8/10 as I had wanted.
So to get my groove back these two days, I am going to be working on changing my inner voice to be accepting of letting my characters completely lead my story, even if it thinks their leading the story into a wall or something.
I also need to create a loose outline for a few more of my short stories to at least not have a sinking/drowning feeling going on before I sit down to write.
I am still have a great time as I am writing everyday. Yesterday wasn’t as productive as I had wanted. I didn’t actually write anything short story related other than I did write down some prompts. I’m going to count that as my daily writing as it was only 24 words but I am focusing on writing everyday.
So, for Day 5, I wound up only writing about 800 words. But that is completely okay. I wrote and that is what matters as I am trying to get a habit built of writing everyday.
Now, for Day 6, I wrote 1,271 words and I am up to 12,066 words total.
Tomorrow, Saturday, November 7th is Double Donation Day at NanoWriMo HQ and it is also Double Your Word Count Day. Now, my word count is 12,000 (to make doubling easier). So double that would 24,000 words by Saturday at 11:59OM. That is another 12,000 words. That is quite a hefty feat. Now, I’m not sure if that is what people mean by Double Your Word Count. It could also mean double the daily goal of 1667 to 3334. Now that would be much more attainable Now that is not to say that 12,000 words in one day is not possible. If I get in the flow, I could possibly do that if I didn’t have to work tomorrow.
I’m not a hundred percent sure of what my writing goal for tomorrow may be. I am leaning towards 3334 as that will put me over the 15,000 word mark and that in and of itself would be totally awesome.
I’ll be thinking more on this while I am work tomorrow and also working on gathering up some new ideas for short stories. I really didn’t plan all of this out when I was thinking of doing a collection of short stories. I really should have had a list of at least 30 short stories but I didn’t. I only had about 7 or 8 going into the first of the month and I have about used those up.
Well, later for now and Happy Writing to ALL!!!
So, I ended Day 3 with 7,717 words. Not bad for Day 3. My goal for Day 3 was going to be 8,334 but I was just too tired last to finish those 600 words.
I am tired even now as I write this. I worked all night Tuesday night and have been up for almost 24 hours in just about a half an hour. Now, that being said, on to. . .
My goal for today was 10,002 words to put me two days ahead. My end count as I am about to get into bed is 10,058 words. So I am actually 56 words ahead of my personal goal for today. I am totally excited that I am so far ahead and I am going to work very hard on keeping up this pace and keep up my goal of writing everyday as well.
I didn’t accomplish that goal during Camp in July as I had wanted but that’s alright. I am trying again and so far, I have written everyday and I am feeling good about it as well.
So, as I can hardly keep my eyes open, I bid you sweet dreams and ever flowing words on paper (or computer screen).
Happy Writing to all and have a wonderful DAY 5 tomorrow and I will see you back here for DAY 5 Blog tomorrow.
PS: Kill your inner editor. I am finding it very enlightening to not stop and edit as I go. It is time saving. Once I hit my goal for the day, I will sometimes go back and look for spelling and such but other than that, I don’t edit yet.
My goal for Day 2 was 6,667 words. Sadly, I did not reach that goal as I was just too tired to write after getting off work.
Day 2 Count: 5,305. So I was about 1300 words shy of my goal. But that’s alright. I wrote and that is what matters most.
Word count goal, since I didn’t meet my Day 2 goal was going to be 8,334 to make up for the words I didn’t get on Day 2. Again, I have not met that goal either and I have to be in bed, like right now, to be at work at 11pm tonight.
So, my word count for day 3: 2,412 words for the day and a total wc of 7,717. So, for the official word count of Nano, I am 2,716 words ahead of where I minimally had to be. So, that is really awesome and I am going to keep up the pace as I move along.
Now, one thing I want to mention is that when I did camp Nano back in July, Monday through Wednesdays were always my hardest days to write because they are my busiest days at work. So, for me to have written so much on a Tuesday where I had only planned on Tuesday being like 500 word days, is really amazing.
I have been having moments where I get a little discouraged and such but that’s alright. I just have to remind myself that I am writing and even if I don’t meet a goal, I am writing and that is most important.
Now, to make up for my missing my personal goal today, my word count goal for tomorrow will be:
DAY 4 GOAL:10,002 WORDS. I am shooting to be two days ahead of the official Nano word count goal. So, that means for tomorrow, I need to write 2,285 words.
I am thinking of going to a local write in at a Starbucks in the morning, so maybe I will be able to pound out some amazing word counts during that couple hour session.
But as it gets later and later, I lost that much more sleep time which is not conducive to writing for me.
So, HAPPY WRITING and HAPPY NANO TO ALL!!!!
PS: Have a wonderful day and don’t let a missed goal get you down!