One of These Days

​I smiled when he walked through the breakroom door. I had totally forgot that he was coming into work at 1. Tapping my phone, I saw that it was just then 12:30.

Letting my head fall down, I groaned, “Oh god.”

“Playing with your tags?” he asked as he sat down at the corner of the table I was working at.

“Bored sitting back here.”

“Well how about I mess up your tags?” he said, grabbing a stack and spreading them around the table.

“No! Don’t! Marilyn will get pissed.”

“You scared of Marilyn,” he teased.

“Bullshit. She can shove it up her ass. Just don’t want to hear her shit.”

“I hear ya,” he said, smiling.

It made my heart warm to see that beautiful smile on his face.

“What?” he asked, the smile bigger than ever.

“Just love that smile, is all,” I said and he blushed.

“Jay!?” he said, looking around.

“What?”

“What if someone hears you?” he asked.

“Does it honestly matter?”

We’d had this conversation a couple times since we had gotten together and it always ended the same way.

“Course it does!”

Now it was my time to smile.

“Are you ashamed of me? Cause I’m sure as shit not ashamed of you and I’d like people to know that you the man that I love.”

“Don’t you think that I wouldn’t want that too?”

“Then what’s the big deal, Bitch?”

“Big deal is that I don’t want to lose my job.”

“Darlin’, I don’t think that’d happen.”

I knew that it scared him. Truthfully, if I was completely honest with myself, it scared me too but the love I had for that boy kept the fear at bay.

Knowing that when I got home from work, Clark would be there or at least he would get home from work eventually and we’d cook dinner together and enjoy some beers in front of the TV.

“You gotta admit that when I call you Darlin’, you get a little hot bothered, makes your dick twitch inside those boxer-briefs you look so fuckin’ fine in,” I said wrapping rubber bands around the stacks of tags that were done.

The blush was even darker then.

“Okay, I’ll stop with the affection but,” I said, leaning down next to his ear as I gathered up all my stuff. “One of these days you’re gonna marry me.”

I patted his cheek as I stepped past him.

~000o(8)o000~

3AM

​Three fucking a.m. in the morning. He has tossed and turned for hours. He shouldn’t have a care in the world. He should be on top of the fucking world but he’s not. Nope. He’s in the luxury ocean-side condo, minutes from the beach, in bed next to the guy he has the hots for.

Wait, correct that. He’s not in bed next to the guy he has the hots for. He’s in the second bed in their double room.

He’d insisted on them getting a queen because it was about fifty bucks cheaper but Clark had insisted that they could afford the two beds.

So there he was, at three in the morning having gotten not a lick of sleep the entire night. Shucking the covers off, he moved to the sliding glass door and stepped out onto the balcony. Grabbing his cigarettes, he leaned against the railing as he inhaled the smoke, listening to the waves crash on the shore below.

~ooo(0)ooo~

To Be Continued…

Good Habits vs Bad Habits

Why is it that GOOD habits are so easily broken and BAD habits are not?

Every year countless people create their list of New Year’s Resolutions. They’re either making a commitment to stop a bad habit and/or to create a good habit.

Now, they might start off strong with that habit to Eat Better Food! A lot of time, however, it’s easier to slip back into that bad habit of eating the bad, fast, and convenient foods that we all love so much.

I myself for instance, had created a very good habit of writing each and every day during the month of November back in 2015. I wrote every single day. It might not have been more than 50 words but I wrote.

Then December came and the habit broke! WHY?

On the other hand, I had a bad habit of biting my nails. Now, this habit is most definitely not easy to break. I have attempted to break this numerous different times over the years to no avail. WHY?

What are you thoughts on this subject? Why do you think it’s so easy to break a good habit and so difficult to break a bad habit?

For more information on breaking habits, check out some of these links.

  1. 5 Unexpected Ways to Break A Bad Habit
  2. Dr. Oz on Good vs Bad Habits
  3. 20 Tricks to Nuke Bad Habits

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30in30 CampNanoWriMo and More!

So, it has been months since I last posted anything on here. I hate that. But it hasn’t been just here. I haven’t written anything other than some personal journal CNW_Participant_Squareentries.

But this month of March, I am participating in a new challenge called 30 in 30 over on Facebook. Check it out HERE. Challenge is to write 30,000 words in March.

Now, I’m not following the rules to the T because I want to just start writing every day. This was my goal for last November as well and I accomplished it then. But sadly, when November ended, so did my habit of writing each and every day.

This is something that I am really not proud of but I am in the process of rectifying the slip in my writing self.

I am venturing out of my comfort zone. I’m joining groups on Facebook and other places online. I haven’t really sought out anything physically local but online for me is just as good because it gives you the freedom to come and go as needed.

I’m super psyched for Camp Nano in April. I’ve only done Camp one other time but I love it just as much as I do November Nano.

This week is going to be working on getting a schedule set up to post to my blog because I want to have a regular post going out each week. Thursdays might be my days each week but I will fine tune and post about it. 🙂

Everyone have a great day and as always, HAPPY WRITING!

 

Merry Christmas, Cowboy

christmasgiftsuggestions So, Tamara over at the WriteStuff Google Group issued us another awesome challenge. Her challenge follows as such:

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Your mission- if you choose to accept it:

Write a short story about a holiday that either brings a couple together, or tears them apart. The holiday can be any of your choosing. Let’s keep it closer to flash fiction with under 2,000 word limit. 

Be sure to share the link to your story in this event page, read each others’ work, comment, and share!

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I simply love these challenges, especially around the holidays. The fall and winter holidays are always my favorite because I am more of  fall/winter person.

So, without further ado, on to my contribution for this wonderful challenge.

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Last Day of Nano-2015

So today is the very last day of November. Which means it is also the last day of NanoWriMo 2015. I’m totally psyched that I got to 50,083 words. I am going to one last write-in tonight so I’ll be putting in a few more hours of writing and getting a few more words in but I won and that’s totally awesome.

Now, with that being said, I won yes but I am glad that November is over. It is highly stressful needing to write 1,667 words a day. Not to say that it isn’t doable. I did it and you can too. But my side goal, really my ultimate goal, was to get into the habit of writing every day and I succeeded in that as well.

For Nano, I did a collection of short stories. None of them are finished yet as I would skip around and go back and forth to keep the interest up to be able to finish 50k in 30 days.

But now that the month is over, I am going to slowly work on finishing them up and then going back and editing them as well.

I am considering using FastPencil to get a free hard copy of my novel. Even if I don’t go back and publish, it would be totally wicked to have a physical copy of something I have written.

Not sure what it all entales but I think if it’s not too complicated, I would really like to have a copy I could show off to friends and family.

Another thing that has come from this November has been my branching out to original fiction. What I mean by that is that most of my writing in the past has been Fan Fiction. I take other creators characters and write about them in new situations and places. It’s always been something I have greatly enjoyed, especially if a show has been cancelled. You can write new adventures for the characters.

But my very last short story of this month, I was sitting at Barnes and Noble and I saw a prompt for “darkness”. Taking that prompt, I wrote a man walking down a dark forest path in the middle of the night. This character could easily have been one I had used from other shows in the past but instead, I decided to not give him an identity. Not until he was walking down the past, trying to decide if he should just turn back and head the way he came. But he decided to venture on and he came across a man standing in the middle of the past.

“What’s your name, young one,” the man asked.

“My name?”

“Yes. Your name. You do have one, do you not?” the man asked, his hand moving to touch the young man’s cheek.

That’s when I gave him a name. Now, this name was actually a name of a guy at the Cafe where I was sitting but it was a name I hadn’t heard often so it seemed interesting.

“C. . . Conrad.”

“Mmmm. Conrad. Brave and loyal. What are you doing out so late, Conrad?”

Now, this might seem odd taken out of context. The man touching the other man’s cheek in the middle of the woods but there’s more to this than what I have shared here but you get the gist.

But this was so exhilarating. I was creating a set of characters and a world was starting to form. In the past I had always used pre-made characters and worlds I already knew.

Now I was creating my own. I was becoming a more in depth writer. A writer I had always wanted to be.

Not to say that there is anything wrong with Fan Fiction. I love it. I will always read it and probably always write it as well. But I am looking to the future now, and I could see myself being published professionally one day and that is something so new and exciting to me.

But alas, I have rambled on for over 600 words right now.

I bid you farewell and safe journeys,
Happy Writing,
Jeremy 🙂